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Four weeks from today, it will be three days before my college graduation.  It just set in this week, how scary this is.  Sure, I've joked around about "Ahhhh the future, ahhhh college ending, ahhhh what is real life" but man, it's really happening.  

A part of me will miss the community of college, the "we're all in this together, ew this paper sucks, gross we have a test, yay I got a A on my paper, wow my friends are talented actors, musicians, artists and I get to see them do stuff regularly for free!"

A part of me is ready to be out there, making stuff happen, learning how to do this life thing, making crafts for my apartment and planning my goals and pursuing them.

And then there is this dark, scary corner of me that fears that I will never accomplish these goals.  A part of me is terrified that I'll get lazy, or busy, or distracted, or something and I'll never find the motivation to make my dreams a reality.

BUT.  Just because I'm leaving college, and school as a institution, doesn't mean I'm "fully cooked" as they say.  Okay, they don't actually say that.  What I mean to say is that I have SO MUCH MORE GROWING TO DO.  College certainly helped me in 942394823984 ways, but there are so many more things that I have ahead of me.  So so soooooooo many more lessons to be learned and things to fail at and things to succeed at.  What I'm saying is I think it'll be okay.  I think.

you're cool: carrie of wishwishwish

  

I just discovered one of my favorite bloggers, WishWishWish, has a youtube channel. And what do you know?  It's just as cute as her blog.  I loved watching this intro, and can't wait to see more videos appear on her channel!  She's a cool lady who travels, loves burgers, and has the sweetest style.  Major bloggercrush that I had to share.

study here: cathedral coffee

A few weeks ago, Ted and I checked out some coffee places we've never tried before.  We ventured all the way to North Portland to check out Cathedral Coffee and fell in love with the open, yet cozy space.  PLUS the pastries were to die for (or at least to drive far for).  If only it was closer!  Hopefully we'll make it over there soon to get in some intense study time.  Can't wait to try more new places!

brunch, blooms, and baby dogs

Something beautiful happened this past weekend. The weather was gorgeous (for the most part), shedding sunshine on blooming flowers. Two of my favorite people visited me from home, making me feel happy and full. I got to explore Portland with my friends and go to brunch with them and my Portland ladies.  And to top it all off, I got to pet so many cute dogs, including a miniature schnauzer who was so so happy and excited and uncontrollable on her walk through my neighborhood that she made me miss Izzy and her similar ways. Good food, good friends, and overwhelmingly cute dogs?  I LITERALLY could not ask for more in a weekend (except perhaps getting to see my family and own dog).  I'm a lucky lady.

in which my friends and i are cute near water

I found these cute barrettes via ban.do and they are A+ friendship accessories.  Who said you have to leave friendship accessories behind when you leave grade school?  NOT ME.  Being true friends, both Erin and Rylee brought theirs along and on our last day together, we all wore them and Ted snapped some obnoxiously cute photos of us wearing them.  No shame.

Girl gang + duck 

Let's reflect on our time in Portland eating food, petting dogs, and loving each other. 

Portland, you ain't so bad either.