And not because you are married to the lead singer of
Phoenix (although it doesn't hurt) and live in Paris. Okay. Maybe because you live in Paris. But the thing is, I am going through this crazy, loony phase. And I wish I could say with confidence that I know that this is what I want to do with my life (I'll get to that), but my practicality gets ahold of my this far-out dream and holds a firm grip.
So, I've always known (I can say this, because since Kindergarten I've wanted "to be an author") that whatever I end up doing with myself will include writing of some manner. And the past few years I've become increasingly more interested in taking pictures, so I've come to the consensus that I will end up making that a habit at the least.
Now, thanks to my first (and second--the next night) viewing of Annie Hall this January (seems so far when you think of all the movies I've watched since), it seems that I have become more of a cinephile than I ever thought imaginable. I mean, I thought I liked movies before. Now I'm going loony bins! I am going completely loony bins. What have you done to me,
Woody Allen?
Because now I have this lunatic, crazy, completely insane desire to be a director. Not just a run-of-the-mill director, the
Wes Anderson kind--you know, basically do everything, from production, writing, directing, music selection, and cinematography...The whole crazy, insane business. Heck, why not sew up the whole wardrobe?
Clearly, I AM OUT OF MY MIND. But this is what I daydream about these days. In my sleep-deprived mind late at night after watching movie after movie for the third night in a row, making films seems like the answer to my love of writing, photography, creating a story with color and design, and of course, there's no escaping it--having things my way. I'll try to settle down about it, but it's taking over my thoughts these days.
When people ask me what I want to be, I usually just say, "happy"; now I'm beginning to realize that to be happy, is to be who you want to be. And who do I want to be? Well, I know the title says
Sofia Coppola, but what I really want to be is SO MANY THINGS. It's slightly ridiculous.
Ah, to be a teenager. We really are crazy, aren't we?
