annoying

Ireland 2009
You know the feeling you get when the person who gets on your nerves the most...well, gets on your nerves?  Not a good feeling.  But there is something worse, I think. 

Today is one of those days when the person I am most annoyed with is myself.  What do you do when this happens, you ask?  Well, I didn't know either, so I just wallowed in my annoyance, reading old Word documents like I do every six months or so.  As I was reading some old poems I wrote forever and a half ago, I found something to focus my angst on, something to truly be annoyed about, perhaps something even to be angry about.  Okay, maybe angry isn't the right word.  It made me sad:  I haven't written a poem in years.  So I wrote one just now about not writing one for so long.  Here it is...

drinking up the excess
i feel parched by the past

did i lose touch of myself
or was it just a phase
of phrases i thought i knew
the meaning reversed?
dried up words
shriveled up with disuse
imagination took a wrong turn
and hasn’t found its way home


Are you ever annoyed with yourself?  What do you do to feel better?  Am I asking too many questions?

4 comments:

Melanie said...

girl we are best friends. I had the same feelings today as well!

▲my• said...

I know the feeling! I clean when I'm annoyed with myself/anxious/nervous.

I actually spent the day cleaning out my closet and putting bags of clothes together for goodwill due to my annoyance with myself.

Maggie Shirley said...

I'm not really sure what I do when I get annoyed with myself, but it is definitely a much worse feeling than someone else annoying you.

I think that I might just think about it until I get distracted by something else, which really doesn't help anything, but oh well. Maybe I should start cleaning like Amy does. Then at least it would be productive.

Dahlya said...

I get annoyed with myself, but then I just think, "Hey, stop being annoying!" Which doesn't really help... but then I just remember how annoying Affirmative Action is and think, "At least you'll never be as annoying as that." Amen. (by the way, I promise I'm not racist)